Aside from my brains suicide

My morning isn't too bad.  I have a Giants game in 2 hours and some fresh coffee (which I'm hoping brings my brain back from the edge).  Then I stumbled upon this on a friends page and it completely made my morning.




xxo

Splatter Analysis.

    Today the wife and I cleaned for a while and the I ended up editing photos the rest of the day.  I have a baby laptop, and I don't want to overload her with a bunch of "bells and whistles", so I was pretty excited when I found an online photo editing program.  Since the moment I found it, up until the very moment (between sentences actually), I've been editing photos and sprucing things up. I can't stop. 

    It's not a bad thing, until I remember that I have 2 or 3 scarves with me that I need to be working on so I can have them up in time for  the man-made holiday.  Perfect holiday to help me use up my pink & purple yarns that I've been stumped on for a few months. ...

    Ok, now is a time to own up to some fears of mine:

• Spiders
• Clowns
• The woods
• Windows
• Noises,

...speaking of noises.
    I'm sitting here in the living room, editing, typing, listening to some Bat For Lashes when all of a sudden I hear a loud hum/buzzing sound to my right.  Let me set this up real simple for you, to my right is the huge glass doors leading into the back yard of pitch black nothing.  What freaks me out more and also a big fear of mine, is when its pitch black outside and there is a light on inside with windows that are uncovered.  Whatever / whoever is outside can see ME but I can NOT see them abd that terrifies me to no end. Crazy fuckin people are out there and they can just stare at me without my knowledge.  Why I'm typing this all out, furthering my current state of paralysis is beyond  me.
    Pretty much makes me sound like a 28yr old who is afraid of the dark, and thats not the case.  I'm just scared of nut jobs watching me.  Nut jobs & inbreds.

She refused to get out of the bed...

So shakey is under the fitted sheet and won't leave.

                                            

always end up liking people I can't be with.
its either, they're out of state/across country...
or they're untouchable.


go me *high5.

  I feel bad, that right now I'd rather be home, or hanging out w/ Jason or Chelle or sitting @ Starbucks.  Rather than standing at the As Tall As Lions show.  I just feel alone, it makes me sad.  I can't wait until The Silent Comedy in April, with people who really want to hang out.  I feel like I'm just someone who wanted to come, so I was allowed to tag along.  Megh, I don't know its retarded.  Makes me feel bad for thinking it, but really can't help it... especially after having food chosen over hanging out w/ friends.  Bunk
lol.

This lil guy ran up into erikas yard, and went crazy, he's so cute

G.Damn Vampires

• 130 am, I just finished Twilight.
• Jealous of people watching the midnight showing.
• Seriously debated going to Wal Mart, to buy the 2nd book :x
• Excited for the movie, but still apprehensive...

    The Cullens & Hales look, egh...
2.5 days to finish this 500 page book. Fool, it took me a month to finish the 500 page HP: Order of the Phoenix (aside from it boring me, least fave of the 7).  Point being, I loved the book.  I'm totally shocked at how much I did.  An ready for this, I fuckin cried like 4 times!  I'm glad I just read it, and I haven't been obsessed and waiting for the movie for months... (as some Twilight fans have been).

    I already have Harry Potter: the Half Blood Prince to obsess about... which I'm PISSED that its not out today a originally scheduled.  Probably would have been confusing kids...Cedric Diggory vs Edward Cullen. oh my.
    Anywho... I'm going to attempt sleep, wake up, have coffee, maaaaybe buy New Moon,
then prep for The Silent Comedy, WOO!!

I look pregnant.  Damn beer belly

    So I drove by my grade school today.  True story: in the first picture, on the right there's a gate/fence.  I
peed in that right hand corner when I was in kindergarden or 1st grade.  We were in line for lunch an they wouldn't let me go to the bathroom, so I just ran to the corner an popped a squat.
    I recycled before I met up w/ the wife. this lil boy had 2 bags full of beer cans. lol.

first off: my dog's a hoochie